nothing but nothing

tsk! blgoger is so down. im reduced to editing my prev post to blog..
so it really is 031005, monday today.


meals are all screwed upside down..
jyingzz says maybe im stressed without knowing..

urgh. promos suck. cnt wait for it all to be over !!
although studying at the airport is secretly woohoo hahah.
but phi just overdid it la. whoever stays over at the airport for 2 nights?? totally treating it like our homes. haha. but we're not the only ones.. apparently freaky people who stare at people unnervingly and laugh to themselves in the toilet stay over too..
spotting of the Zac lookalike!
yea butttt..haha.
no seth cohens. alrightyyy im off.


tings hello I MISS YOU please..promos driving me nuts :/ i'll buy the card to call you soon! hope all is well :) <3 you.


By the way you brought me here,
It makes believe,
the best is still yet to come,
and I don't want to leave.
Forgive my hesitation but I'm learning to trust in you.
Help me to dream these dreams
because I don't have a clue.


favourite at the moment :)
thanks, c.
oh well.


ohmy cant believe i actually entertained the thought of being itsy bitsy sad whn promos end cos i'll miss study seshs. (??!?!) psychotic. okay take care and lucks, people.


-



sweetNOTHINGS

tings there are too many songs for us! but nonetheless yknw i <3 you so and I MISS YOUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i knw..so sorry about it..call me soon?? -sends you some mittens in the falling degrees. :) the ipod nano is COOL. DEAD COOL. lucky you! wht you gonna do with greenie poddie?

Pour me some wine, join me tonight
Surround me with your happy faces
Share some fun stories, stay up all night
Surround me with your friendly faces
Life is so good when I'm with you
I needed the laughs, I needed you tonight
life is so good when I'm with you
So look at me, when I'm not aware
Then you'll see, I cannot do without you
I'll be right there, if you ask me to
If you're feeling sad, I'll stay with you
And if you're scared, I'll hold your hand
Like I know you'd do for me too.

even if i made girllllllfriends (girlyyfriends),
know that i'll still need you. shalb!



Far away, I feel your beating heart
All alone, beneathe the crystal stars
Staring into space, what a lonely face
I'll try to find my place with you

What a Beautiful smile
Can I stay for a while
On this beautiful night
We'll make everything right


cos life's like this
and not at all seth-and-summer
and we're not marissa-and-summer
BUT yknw im alwayssss here -


i wanna hold your hand

this simple line!
miss you. till then, <3.

-


anywayyy a long expired account on the past week..

happy birthday REEraroo pls dont stay mad with me >:(
happy birthday SAMmiekins you poor decieved girl, but arent you glad all the same

:))

happy tidings during the surprise party!
blowing balloons + oily kitchen + drinks maker + fresh air + running around + changing in staircase corridors + stealing food + no money but free oreos + ALMOST leaking of news + the cousin and her tightfits + board making + ohmy the yummy food + pic taking ;; oreo ah focks, bright sparkles + the black sex songs + musical chairs to Fix You and blue black on my ass from the shoving + cabbing in the sleepy streetlights = FUN.


and many many attempts to escapades
resulting in 20cm scratch, muddy shoe (ohmy) being fetched out of school


accident-prone week
6 blue blacks, fever + flu, and the above mentioned 20cm scratch
sheesh..
how come its not mentioned in my horoscope readings!
yes fyi i do check it weekly.
haha
ok and ystd ws w phi the ultimate shopper..i was DYING of thirst, thank God for 40cents guardian mineral water. HAHA. wldve preferred our NTUC ice mountain secret though -looks at AMK kia. hahahha.


been thinking about karma alot and concluded that..


it prevails.



//EDIT 260905 mond
pops red signal
will the best friend call me pls :(

maybe its not about being alone, but feeling alone.

andand,
maybe i tried, maybe i didnt..

but being at a loss
all i want is to run to..
i dnt knw who anymore.
cos no one's at the receiving end anyway.

should i stay

:)

gp lesson
Midnight Talk
daddy's itsy sweetness
yummy food
bumping into mina (miss you!)
then bumping into don and etc.
overseas call from tinkerbell (albeit the contention this time :)
very conducive study location
nutty laughter, good times
neat hair day
waking up at 930a.m
choc! (peanut butter m&ms and ritter cornflakes anyone? :)
coldplay ; fix you


:(

completely weirded out, troubling, disturbing, awkward, uneasy afternoon and night (ystd)
sambal dishes = shitty stomach (pun! haha)
STRANGE & UNbeautiful
very erm haircut
all the 'catch up soon's from everyone
no swinging conversations with phi
sore throat
no strawberry milkshake
miscommunication with parents, or the lack thereof.
school.
I&R
promos


recently bumping into a lot of people.. like i havent seen nissa in more than half a year though she lives around me, but suddenly i saw her this morning. and etc etc. and its so coincidental tht whn i bump into people after such a long long time, im either carrying the same bag or the same tee i donned when we hung out. which is highly amazing if you dont think about the mighty embarrassing factor..its like the piecing of memory..! haha

and why why why are things this way?
tell me whyy~~
sigh feeling so crappy
time will not untie the knots i thought it would.. (this is so Twelfth Night)


Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days (years)
Making up for all this mess



oh welllll.
off to do tht I&R.

/edit
ooh. oc was so aww.
:)

coldplay

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace

...

(finally the right song, jyingzz!!)

Students increased to grand total of 7!
Beams. Okay, don't know whether to beam or freak out..
kids are a handful! >:(

Steph! Your book was very :) indeed, made my day. (not night though)

I ought to stop being cheesy and play all the sappy ballads..
Inducing the wrong emotions at the peak of my happiness today.
Right-o.
So..you really just leave me be?

i am no solution
to this sound of dispollution in me
and i was not the answer so forget if you ever thought
it was me

people are beginning to feel like balls
bouncing and bounding off me
does that make me the wall?!

and people who dont understand..
really just dont..


been Fake Studying as the Dreamy one would put it
with nana (yummy food! but did study a tad),
ree (completely jst sleeping and not pretending to study at all),
steph (ahem I studied while she read a book!?!? but yes phi im reading the book now haha and sorry for deserting you tht day again despite your protests tht all you wanted to do was go home and sleep anywayy..andand i can foresee you sleeping now..your screwed up body clock is too much..!)
and other days with jiang, charm, mat and d..


hols are ending..still not in the study mood..
so dead!
but well..
had a nice conver with Tinkerbell (i miss you! will check out a+f website yes :)
and also Midnight talks with the two Psychotic and Dreamy ones..
poddie is ready for collection today!!!! 4 days early :D :D
gonna finally study a little more.

its in the little things.


oh my God
i dont know what to do with my wardrobe..
-looks at clothes with disdain.
tings and jyingz dnt laugh at me!

im not gonna let us fall apart

have you ever felt like everything's slipping off your fingers
like you missed your chance when you could hold them tight
but just after that splitting second, its over..?

i dont want to be this wayy
but somehow i always miss the very second
being caught up in my nothingness

sooo
to all the people
im so very sorry
all your smiling faces are popping up in my head
and with a jolt i suddenly realise
im missing out so much!!!!!!!!


BOOHOO.
-sings ;; what have i done..


the best tinkerbell ever! i will email you! and finally tell you everyth thts been on my mind

stephiphi!! MONDAY MONDAY, rational bimbo! and get well soon you sickly galsxz! 2 weeks mc!!?!!? btw am very very :))))))) tht you always bother to msg me though yes sometimes im very very lazy or forget to rply :(((((((

ree+nana tmrw FINALLY!

dada AFTER PROMOS?!?! miss you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we mst take lotsa photos!! all tht i have of you are like, in sec3?!?!

ele girlllll. seriously, an image of your fish burger drawing appears whn i think of you. BOLD YOU SO. hpe your leg gets welly well and we both have healthy throats can finally finally sit down in macs (but they closed dwn the wisma one yknw :( and laugh at black undies / pants matching black top. haha!

hwing MISS YOU TOOOOOOO!! anw did you msg me? saw your name but accidentally deleted bfore reading. haha you! after promos! lots to tell me! +all the cj people..don, jolene, etc etc sighsigh.

and maybe when we're 80 we'll sit around with ralph lauren pillows laugh about how we had bumps in our early years and brushed off our conflicts cos we wouldve overcome them.


realise this entry is uber psychotic and full of rambles
but yes, hit by sudden realisation
and my books too!
im sorry ive been ignoring you or pretending to read you! i will..try tmrw!


and all who were there / are here / whatever, am very :) !
hehh.
<3

im away from the world's empathy

recently been feeling like ive been wasting my time
going places, saying words, doing things im not entirely keen about..
but everything's making a turn for the worse all of a sudden,
i dont know what to make of it..

sigh.
weary and wary again.
i swear, all the gradual revelations are driving me up the wall.
cant things just be simple and fathomable for once..


today's just an awfully unsuccessful attempt to study AGAIN..
and well, a lot of minds whirring like running tracks.


promos are up and coming :(

my poddie's gone. i hope they recycle and not crush it!! poor baby..
the replacement will only be ready 2 weeks from now..
what am i to do without it?!??!!


had sore eyes ystd..
walking around half blind and uncomfortably.
after being so used to having a layer of contact lens in my eyes,
feel so sleepy without them all day and night..
they uncannily keep me more awake..

was an attempt to shop and everything..
in the end was a bit productive! :)
and and dinner was nice!! suki = new hangout place. hahah
going gaga over kids clothes, trying on nightie spag straps (looking so sick and porn-ish!), talking and talking and talking and..

late night talks are the best.
i so miss them. -looks at tings pointedly. I MISS YOU and your huang shang'r-ness! (though you wouldnt believe it :(

wting thrs so much i wnt to tell you but i dnt knw how and cant.. :( :( but yknw youre the loveliesttttttttt. will mail you again soon. hope all's :) over there! have some unbelievable news to tell you. i can imagine your jaw dropping..sigh. i miss just swinging by your place or leaving st nicks in the aftnn for crystal jade or fish and co pls..the simplicity of things then..


the sweetest things always come with daunting omens to wreck things up.
doesnt it just make you wonder what can we actually believe in??


rahh.
gp essay.

hmrpf!!!!
feel like just throwing everything aside and screaming i dont careeeeeeeee!
weirdly angstygalsxz. must be pms..

take the plunge

study population in gardens burgeoning..
hard finding a non smoky and warm spot!
excessive eating = indigestion, and
nauseaus (sp?) stomach doesnt go well with swinging the night away
but it was all very :)

studying.

ugh.

omg discovery of studious boiz very worrying
unstrike studying!

studying.

there!


..but maybe its not that.

we keep saying forever.


I dig my toes into the sand.
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket.
I lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless and in this moment i am happy.

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here.

I lay my head onto the sand.
The sky resembles a backlit canopy with holes punched in it.
I'm counting ufo's.
I signal them with my lighter
and in this moment i am happy, happy.

The world's a roller coaster and I am not strapped in.
Maybe I should hold with care, but my hands are busy in the air.


HUANG WEITING you erpipi i miss you!!

never had a little lamb, little lamb, little lamb

HAHA. today was damn funny +UNPRODUCTIVE
but quite :) caught up with psycho galz. finally ripping plastic cover off her zen..haha

my poor poddie's sick :(
worsening critical condition!
sigh.

was so fucking pissed just now,
comp is a stupid screwed up asshole!!
treating me like this at the wee hours in the morning!
cant believe i spent FIVE hours
doing gp proj and pw.
finally off to sleep now.


sigh.

-sings to myself. you're in the middle it'll up the ride..

sigh.
some people..
disappointing.


excessive sighs.

oh, and miss huang weiting rply my mail! miss you.

speechless >>

so,
what ive wanted to say is that..
maybe i got it wrong buttttt
the point is there is more to what you think the situation is like
but i dont know what / how to say it so........
yea.

haha.

today was quite an angsty day filled with pent up frustrations!
BUT it'll be okayy -singsong tone (whips out handkerchief and starts singing and dancing to j.tsai ._. -looks at sammiekins.)
..i hope

-


TINGS, I MISS AND <3 YOU SO!!!!!!! where art thou, my tinkerbelle!?! sorry about sunday btw.. :( -you are my centrestage. (ahem, jap surname boy?) haha and i need to tell you about disappearing and fading dinohair. sigh. stressed about upcoming promos but not doing anything much about it still :( how is it in L.A? and and CHECK YOUR MAIL! wish i could barge into your room again when im having a bad day or feel like giving you a surprise.. :(

my own perfect drama,
my own scripted page

the cough bug (flu bug, cough bug??) is definitely in the air..especially when a group of 5 sick gluttons who are constantly spreading their germs to each other. circular pattern thats never ending ._.

throat was hurting badly, and eyes grew red and bloodshot!
overly heaty, i suppose.
and jiang HAD to buy curly fries at mac's ._.
btw i didnt knw about mac's new innovation (to remain the dominating firm in the contestable market, no less. okay attempt to apply econ skills) till today!

and randomly, i love m&m's peanut butter! loyally patronising fruit drink stall in school to buy it. haha jiang's imported peaches were VERY good too! - awed exchange with sam. haha


got lotsa work to do! but still being completely slothy :((((
aye, makes me wonder why A Certain Person happily skipped school for almost an entire week..sick? bad bad haircut? the result of all these dont seem to bear any relation..

oh oh,
ystd ws quite funny..jumping up and down and pretending to run, all for the sake of trying out new functions in my phone and nette's digi cam. and the si ma guang + fei fei sents us into peals or laughter..

alrightyy dozing off in front of the comp alr..the medicine is taking drowsy effect on me..nightyy! :)


and and tings i miss you too!!! rplied your mail alr. fast and furious haha. bet youre in dreamland now! <3


this is a very random entry, but too sleepy for anything..

scent of sweetness

sudden craving for late mornings + coffeebean breakfast + random walking + borders + evening talks + swinging in the wind and the list goes on ..
too bad, stuck in school
and also, the ingredients are missing.

phone looks increasingly lovable,
at least.
though sadly spore pok-ly didnt have it in white.
:((
shall get over it..

so now im home superbly early
the shades are still drawn, no one's at home! gasp.
dont intend to draw them.
shall be contented with strawberry + oc reruns.


did i mention everything's missing?

if im caught in the middle,
i know it will be
the end of me.


so there i was, in the mood to indulge, spending an hour typing ths completely random but at the same time relevant mail to tinks when i decided to attach photos but somehow i cancelled the process AND the whole thing just poof, disappeared! thanks ah. the screen now reads New Message. oh my goodness gracious me. i was just staring at the screen in disbelief till i decided to rant. hotmail, why are you doing this to me!!?!?!!? tell me why~

tinks if youre reading this, im so hopping mad!! sorry, shall try to re-mail you again >:( so much nonsense to tell you. miss miss miss you.



:(:

\read it left or right ward.

so anyway.
today i forgot to bring pinkie b.
forebodes a baddd day
BUT
2.4 was (more than) pretty aight :D :D
thanks jiang!
we met up with ree
were happily chatting away over lunch
and shopped a bit
but all of a sudden
were just unanimously overtaken by weariness..
nvm, meet up soon again!
imy, peasant aj.
hahah.


weary and wary is right.

cant believe hotmail's down.

And our flares go unnoticed.
Dimminished, faded just as soon as they are fired.

We are, we are, intrigued. We are, we are, invisible.

Oh, how we've shouted, how we've screamed, take notice, take interest, take me with you.


So denied
So I lied
Are you the now or never kind
In a day
And a day love
I'm gonna be gone for good again

Here's a toast
To all thoose who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights
We felt alive
Here's to the tears
You knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name
On the line
Along with place and time
Wanna stay
Not to go
I wanna ditch the logical



completely worn out today!
school was a waste of time.
hours of dazed UNentertainment in the sweltering heat -.-
till it rained and i could watch the pitter and patter, that is.
:)


you kick up the leaves
and the magic is gone


goodness me,
last night there very disturbing gathering going on at the field near my place..
sounded like Patricia Mok screaming her lungs out
prolly a mini Nat Day celebration
sweet, but maybe they shldnt be shrieking away like that all the time :|


you tell me your blue sky's faded to grey


happy 40th independence, Singapore :)
my little country that i constantly whine about but secretly feel loyal to..


happy indepedence to me too, all over again..
but i know we wont be left alone ; theres you and me!
and i think i know what its gonna be like, once again,
and im sorry for allowing the green J to consume me inside out and all the nonsense
but yknw i will miss and love you!
big hug please
thanks for making it easier
:))


(resizing = weird grainy and squarey faces)




you said you need a blue sky holiday


I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up...

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess



HAH. apparently the school's principal mailed everyones parents..huge commotion :|
mummy was rather amused (she recieved sms since i didnt report her email..not like she checks her mail anyway) and the parents were rather appalled by my ugly 'henna' at the back of my knee joint .. haha its a purple blue bruise obtained from what, i have yet been able to recall, but its prolly from floorball. hope it goes away soon! dont want sticky band aids!



coffee beaned at gardens (maju) with charm, sam and their friend shena (sp?)
not pdtive at all! haha
was jst feeling sleepy then awakened by .. jolting news.
mhrm.
went to town to mt jiang
and and finally bought the bag ive been searching for
:D :D

purple crumpler was quite a mistake..
giving me a neckache and headache ._.

you sing a sad song just to turn it around.


as you can tell, im just rambling.


you say what you like,
and how does it feel,
one more time.

rightt..
off, got truckloads of work to do.

purple poodle doodle.

had tuition then met steph..
random tired day.
shopping was unproductive (do nice bags actually exist?? im looking at all the bags i own and -wrinkles nose. theres only word to describe them : GROSS. queer taste i had + acted on impulse = complete waste of money + living in blissful ignorance that i ought to be abashed of.), as was tuition.
starving like a marykate.
(no offence, i actually do like her. just randomly thought of the similie.)


far east has transformed into a nightmare zone after not patronising the area for quite sometime..
freaky deaky.


was still wondering about certain enigmatic characters that i know of when it suddenly led to me to another train of thought .. why on earth do i bother trying to figure these people out when i myself ..?! nonsense.

had a nice talk on msn ystd :)
and yes,
when you end up lost,
the odds are, you lost yourself,
not your environment, not your friends, not changes.
hrm.


feel like buying some nice smelling shampoo
will prolly remind me of tings and her passion fruit,
nights of sleepover and
morning after.
:)


trying to get it all back.
miss lots of people..!


tutoring tmrw. yucks.
why isnt national day on a sunday?!

american hi fi ; another perfect day

dashboard conf;
several ways to die trying


IM COMPLETELY TRAUMATISED BY MY OWN DISTURBING BEHAVIOUR!!
last week i stupidly attempted to cut my own fringe and and
the outcome is horrible..!
now i look like a pri sch kid!!!!!
ahh! after years of trying to look less kiddy,
my itchy fingers snipped it all awayyy!
great.
hrmpf.
so please do not laugh if i look shockingly weird..
im upset enough alr..
:((((


+ embarassing bimbotic encounters..
i.e shouting hi to yiqin but it turned out sounding more like a shriek and apparently my whole class heard, looking at me in appall

and fell over my own feet out of the blue while stoning because i was subconsciously twisting my ankle a little too much (habit)

and and tumbling about in a jerky double decker bus while attempting to descend the stairs..and practically the entire upper deck was my sch people, privy to charm + my weird noises..


-.-"


and tdy elleteejay was being SO EXTREMELY NICE!
-rolls eyes.
inner battle + complete fear = evasion
except that we can evade no longer..
tsk, highly annoyed.


++ undelivered, empty promises..


hrm.
ws a bad+boring day..
till..floorball!! fun!!
though we were all complete amateurs
looking very retarded, whacking at the ball in any way we want to (ok maybe it ws just me)
but! it was highly enthralling and exciting!
:D :D
lost the last match cos the ball erm went up my shorts from below, somehow..and was too -raises eyebrows- to react!
oh well.
still, i like! :)


//EDIT
jst found out smth (again)
and im really just wondering (like every other day)
why does it seem like people are interested in making as many friends as possible, socialising at the utmost, pretending to like you when they dont really do, judging you by how you look like, not bothering / wanting at all to really know you but beaming at you and forging a friendship with you when they have secret thoughts that you dont know about.

labelling you as a bimbo, for example, just because you flail and scream about a lot (NOT LIKE I CAN HELP IT OKAY and stop pretending its only a joke. not gonna believe anything anyone says anymore.)
cant help it, being born without a pretty face or whatever.

completely disgusted and disturbed by all these people around me.

its really freaky how you dont know about all the secret thoughts people are habouring, your untold stories suddenly leaking out to the rest of the world flippantly.
if theres any good out of it,
its to learn never to believe in people easily.
they just let you down overnight.
to think i stood up for people i thought i knew, i thought were my friends.
hello?!?!??!
is this what the world is like?
i know it is, but the superficiality seems exceedingly extreme at my side of the world..
overwhelming disappointment in people i realise i dont even know / dont even know me.
oscillating from anger to sadness to disgust.
all the bad vibes
just keep evolving.

ascending this lone path



sportygalz + yz;
jiang in yellow, charm in green, sam in colourful white, yz in white, nette in brown, im in pink.

rapture;
(from left) yz, sam, charm, nette, me, mlene


love you funny people :)




(from top left) charm + i, silly hwing being retarded (haha! MISS YOU!), sam's funny photo! and charm happily showing off (pls dont kill me) and ree being reetarded hahas.






esp for stephiphi i <3 you so :)
(fret not about your ridiculous hair which i strongly opposed to!?!?! announcement : it has grown!)



(click on photos to enlarge)


completely in photo mood..
shall have more when more recent ones are readyy.



//EDIT.
sudden oscillating emotional transformation from all that cheery pic up there, i know.
but i feel so empty.
its always nice to be subtly assured that you still matter, but when youre completely denied that assurance..
something has changed,
and whats worse is that i dont know what.
was it my fault..


UGH.
completely lagging in schoolwork + wayy to slothy.
this is called demand without the ability and willingness to pay in economic terms
psychogalz.


am off to brood to myself.
the best friend is away.
sobs :(
(quite literally)

ascending this lone path



sportygalz + yz;
jiang in yellow, charm in green, sam in colourful white, yz in white, nette in brown, im in pink.

rapture;
(from left) yz, sam, charm, nette, me, mlene





(from top left) charm + i, silly hwing being retarded (haha!), sam's funny photo! and charm happily showing off (pls dont kill me) and ree being reetarded hahas.






esp for stephiphi i <3 you so :)



(click to enlarge)


completely in photo mood..
shall have more when more recent ones are readyy.

maybe that's what it takes

my tinkerbell has gone to msia..
no drinking and shopping sesh (running from freaky policeman hollering at us and seeking refuge in ralph lauren because we jaywalked .. chut chut ness .. the perfect tyk lookalike RL/Lacoste folded sleeves top .. niu'er ness .. hahah) in the near future..or watching freaky jap / thai / korean shows and traumatise ourselves (sin city is too much, ms huang weiting and chan fei ju) .. or our constant discussions about certain worries .. or hanging out at yin sum sum's place, lying around talking or sitting by crazy suicical windows. all that indescribable happiness, peacefulness and laughter :) will be much missed, theres no one else like you.. :((((((

>>
bic runga - sway
coldplay - speed of sound
nada surf - if you leave
dishwalla - angels or devils
my chemical romance = helena
martina mcbride - valentine
jay zz - qi li xiang

:(


met nette, jiang and yz after tuition SORRY I WAS LATE, haha. major laughing sesh, stomach aching!! + all that muscle ache from bursting sportyness recently (5 items + tennis & jogging w charm hammie! ++TRAINING EVERYDAY hahahhaha. not literally la. inside joke) = dying and tired galzsx. haha although it was an awfully unlucky day (tasteless Pastamania .. why??? + highly unsuccessful neoprint attempts .. tell me whyyy~) hahah ah liansx ness.


ystd maju malled with stephiphi! :) -does that nod head mrm thing. hahah imy! v sleepy though. exchanged ipods with her..secretly~ think some of her songs qt nice haha. now i know what its like to have 3 poddie colours! pink (mine) green (tings') and blue (phi's) ! hrm, lame.


thurs was with nic..the island was vvv good! two thumbs up!


aloha,
florida!
haha
yet another inside joke..
thinking about all that we were laughing about just now
hahaha


ahem, interesting news abt d.h the past few days,
haha!


tired! tutoring tmrw
>:(((((((((((



when traumatising stuff is happening all around us (be it circle of friends or around the world), being at a loss foils and hinders any ability to help.. or is it?


-


cant stand some lame shite in school..
refuse to bother / engage myself at all.


ugh. completely lagging in schoolwork :((((


nightnight.

dont pretend youre sorry
i know youre not

im waiting, waiting, waitingggg.
and trying not to think about how it gets to me
the way you sometimes blatantly just
forget and expect.
but i know you,
AND i love you :)
miss my tinkerbell.


(the heading holds no bearing to my post, please! in case of misinterpretations.. ._.)


rapture dancers were wow!

though i secretly (okay openly now) thought it was a rather boring affair..
apart from erm, Night Life (according to nette) later in the night with nette and xyz..funny galz, hahah

and and finally catching up w da!
wtfk. ;)
reminscing sec3 days.
theres a difference with people you click on almost right away and can trust
and people you have to try so hard with..
and phi is right,
We shouldnt have to try so hard.
(btw steph imissyou larhh! friday is a longggg time away..)


wellll.
im off to watch wicker park with jiejie
till then,
still waiting..


EDIT //
did the jobfinder thing at karina's blog after reading about jiang's very apt job titles..and i got a tadahh shoplifter as my ideal job ._.
HOWEVER, upon entering my full name albeit the IC way, with my surname first (holding my breath with dread as anyone who knows me knows my full name is actually pretty gross..) BUT ALAS! the true me ought to be a Princess!
HAHAH.
shoplifter, my ass.
okay lame..
shall watch wicker park now now..
the only reason why my sis isnt complaining is because shes still blissfully massaging her legs with the osim thing..

anna nalick ; forever love


hrm. when i was supposed to be online i was asleep and now that im online, everyone is asleep :(


ystd was International Friendship (problems) Day
wellllll.


never wanted things to turn out this way,
never thought they would..


anywayyy i swear ystd we walked a million miles away from sch! haha okayy we walked all the way to queensway and got completely worn out (but according to soccergalzz jiang, this is nothing!) ._.


and why is it that after my 2.4, my entire body (ie limbs, arms, back, neck, tummy etc.) aches?!?! imagine how i ran! queerdo..


rapture ltr..not really interested in it actually haha but heard its supposed to be fabulous. andand, im meeting dadeedoo! :D :D been SUCH a long time.


if you leave, dont leave now
please dont take my heart away

we never had time on our sides
and now its fading fast


charmie hammie sorry again for not going! and congrats! :)

jyingzz what word vomit??

i hate everything about you

ive been such a computer illiterate!!
now it has finally dawned upon me the futile-ness of a mouse!
no cheese for misbehaving! i have the keyboard, so there.
ok thanks, my smartypants chocolate! (do not gloat pls hahah)


today has been completely a myriad of emotions


had a lot of talks! :)

encounter with d.h! -looks at jiang.
T-HEE.

didnt go for the hockey meeting! :( wanted to go! though i'd be kicked out once i step in it. WELL. nvm nvm..

picnic day today!
and the best food award goes to .. nettyyy! hahah your tuna wins hands down, dear!



LTJ is completely disturbing and effed up LARH.
we're SO PISST upon the wonderful discovery fiesta
talk about favouritism.


and then

sometimes
imbecility, insensitiveness (deliberate/accidental?), oblivion (ditto as previous), confusion ..



the ugly letdown,
nothing beats that.
why dont you see beneath the bubbling surface
and answer your own questions
im dying to eat up my big green J., believe me
but
patience and tolerance morphing into
creeping disappointment..
when will you see the visage, i wonder.
too late.


p.s thanks for the enlightenment, but i
dont need your senseless comments toward my burgeoning problem.

newsflash, you dont really know what im like.



maybe its just me ..
i shall not be wasting away.
smiles, everyone.
sleepyyyyyy.
falling asleep even on the school caf's tables,
carefully dodging rice bits and God knows what other stains and leftovers..ew ew.
and and, thanks all :)
yknw who you are.
dyou think tmrw will be a good day?
i hope so.

ladidum.
(thinks about the motivation. so shallow, so shallow. but it distracts..)

monologue! (priv joke.)
nighty.

and so it is.



is it me

or is the gap just widening
i know theres only one place for me
and its called

the second fiddle.


i live in my memory.
miss everything in the past.


err well.
night, all.

summer smile.

yipdeedoo! today has been quite a :) dayy

apart from lit pc test
traumatic hour and a half :|
then had the weekly uneasily leisure 2.5hr break.
watched the truman show during gp! its quite impressionable..
headed to yoshinoya with sammiekins + charm :) for a while

then met chocolate (haha!)
initial d was so-so
quite comical, haha.

what do you do when someone you could trust your life with .. goes?
way awayy.

you try to be mature and handle it calmly like you attempted to the previous times.

..

then it hits you that this time, its for real.

i think about the yester-gos


FINALLY friday! met tinks in the early afternoon (supp to swing by her place in the morning for a 'surprise' however due to unforeseen circumstances AND unwillingness to undergo yet another ass flattening experience during the typical hour and a half bus ride on my part, did not.)


yup, was another day to commemorate BGL Day..! (stop commenting on my niu'er ness! >:c)


forced her to try the caesar salad (yummier than Spagheddies'!)
however Tastes and Preferences whisked her away from my side of the approval line
tsk!
oh, was such an Anorexic Day (attempt)
scaled the many miles of Ridesford and Orchard Boulevard and CityHall
albeit the rare consumption of only caesar salad and minestrone soup and bread! (amazement of our survival)
to abstain from being CC (chut chut -laughs), us worrywarts!
oh my, suddenly a vague scene of us being conned by Starbucks Promoter appears in my mind! we have, sad to say, naively upsized our Whip Creamed Green Teas to a Grande. why, the nerve of that conniving..! not so anorexic after all..


-

Young women today have an impossible task living up to impossible and unrealistic body ideas. Miss universe probably goes around the world doing good deeds, but what does that teach young girls? only beautiful girls can be humanitarians? only girls in bikini can achieve world peace?

Young women are spending inordinate amounts of money and time transforming themselves because they dont like the way they look. The gap between reality and perfection is unlikely to ever be closed. Thin is in, and always being thinner than your current weight is the goal of most singaporean women.

The world media has only a narrow, unhealthy and superficial idea of what beauty should be, or of who or what is deemed worthy.

-


random shopping,
discovery of The 'Island Shop' #2!
hahah tinks and her One-Side-Only manner of donning earrings must resume
spread wide and far to syl too, ive observed
haha!
a bit of cheering up for tinks
due to a 2 week temporary loss of a loved one (ie the ipod)


walked to and fro,
being the fickle-minded people that we are
blahblah
watched a certain Jap movie
which i thought was Pretty Flu-ish,
but much to my dismay (and i suspect, syl's too,)
tinks was just sighing impatiently and shifting about, displaying her feet and wishing Aki would just hurry up and die already ._. all because her bladder was bursting. oh, heartless! hahah
hilarious how a rather Kawaii boy can resemble 3 distinctively different looking guys to 3 inane girls..



Loud and Boisterious episode @ Tommy H.
earns some mentioning,
for it celebrates the birth of Set E F G H (i dont know which) for CC tinks
very Pu Shu indeed.
but what was with that Erpipi salesman!
disapproving the white polo tee but insisting upon a Sunset themed flannel with horizontal stripes! to match with a checked Sunset themed skirt?? horrors!
Tastes and Preferences indeed.


and i refuse to believe that ive been reduced to such a waif
that even after tiptoeing on the highest end of this approx. 2.5inches wedge (which, obv is not an item of my posession..shall not fall prey to object of humiliarity when i trip and fall to my death. it was a shoe on display),
i am unable to achieve a hundred and seventy centimetres!
what is the world coming to
>:c


and and sylvia chan fei ju
THREE KILOGRAMS
+ talleste Starbucks
hrm.


realise im blogging in a rather Tastes and Preferences way today
pardon my codes!
still all hyped up
ystd was funfunfun :D


movie marathon on a lovely saturday as today
has been greatly shortened..
._.


happy Saturday Night Out, the remaining Nan Quanz!


hrm, SportyGalz, when shall our Chinatown+Little India shopping trail take place..??
mighty looking forward to it!
(-ignores the look of dismay on JAY YINGZ's (oh my the new nickname is.. ._. (eh! bracket within a bracket! doesnt it remind you of karina's bag within a bag thing..hahah) leave it to you to come up with it!) face)


time to try sewing up all the buttons that burst.
(hope you know i wasnt being literal but attempting to be metaphorical instead..)
randomness.


-


PHI you poor angsty galz!! we need to spend a nice saturday indulging in the homely Maju area, conveniently forgetting that certain sly and cunning rental shop has been conning us ever since we step foot in it (maybe we should resort to The Cool Rental Next Door instead? with its Fei Yu Ching cds to boot HAHAH) and rent that damned 13!! and also some oc lovin' (haha! our lovely S. Cohen..no no not seth, yes its you-know-who) :D :D MISS YOU!! harharhar. i secretly knew the online thing was a failed mission from the start..yupyup have recovered miraculously after attending school only once this week! :) WHEN ARE WE MEETING UP?!?!?!?!?!?!?


-


whew! long entry!!
Longestttttt Ever!
madness!!
-looks at clock.
shall return to Pride and Prejudice while awaiting the arrival of 3+
4 Blondes was fab! despite its bimbotic sounding title..
very Jane Austen with a martini indeed


have set my heart to ignore ignore ignore.
shall bear no interest in what people from school have to say.
okay, SportyGalzz?? :)
zilch. nada. (nada surf! haha..)


paradoxical situation,
London's joy of being elected for 2012
VS bombings
SIGH.
what is the world coming to!


im bored.
and annoyed with self.


/ phoenix ; love for granted.

cavanaugh park

headache + flu + sore throat + aching body = extreme grogginess + oblivious to everything

zz.


taking a good break from school.

sammiekins thanks for helping me sign up! am officially not cca-less after all. haha i wanna be sub editor too!! and OF COURSE i didnt cheat..-insulted. hahah kd. hope all is rightt, after your angsty/melancholic post..heart you so!

PHI strangeness! how can yours be traditional and adventurous at the same time! anw hw did it go? super tiring affair, all that photo taking and carrying huge stacks of clothes here and there..

ree thanks babe for your msg :) made me smile in my sleepy state! ily too..meet up soon okayy?? <3

mond;
steph's place then rushed to meet the rest at kovan

bbq was rather fun i guess :)
not awkward like i imagined it to be
jyingzz came up with games to amuse ourseleves with
freaking hilarious!
food was not bad, YES JYINGZZ THE RICE WAS EVERY BIT YUMMYLICIOUS
_{apart from the hair find..}


HAHAH
photo taking seshs to further amuse ourseleves..


random thought : it never ceases to amaze me how bitchy and gossipy guys can be. dont judge anyone you dont know very well. its not fair and it sucks to hear stereotypical comments. -rolls eyes. seriously, go GRAB a life. (reminds me of ele!! haha!) another to add to my list of Why I Hate School.

ugh.


rather sick of hibernating at home during my short two-day hiatus..
sudden rush of urge to see everyone!


cant help but feel that
when you take things for granted
karma comes and takes a toll on you
and moves you right to where you started.

i guess that all you've got
is all youre gonna get
so much for
so much more

dont you just love dashboard! nana dont start mocking me for my lists of songs in my ipod now..hrm, dishwalla angels or devils, thumbs up!


i think im having diarrhoea! fourth day consecutively. must be eating too much rahh food. mixture of crystal jade didnt help..tings complained of tummyache too! ugh. are all food secretly contaminated!


tutoring was horrific today. the kids pissed me off badly. ugh. to think that i happily bought naomi (??) sweets for them :(


off to nana's place after that..and unless you think lying by the pool at 430pm equates to tanning, then yes nana ree jiang and i were tanning..was being damn lazyyyy! FATTER THAN EVER BY THE MINUTE :(

ate lots as usual
contributing to my diarrhoea.


am officially The Sub!
.. what a sacrifice. haha kidding.
i cant believe im MANLY AND MOTHERLY.
-faints.
as long as it makes you starry la.


caught Be With You with the nan quanzz fam..
ODD, I SAY.
tiring affair.
but the show was fab!
having flu ..
haha.


hrm, catching up with pink bag galz (laughs!) @ crystal jade was :) :)
smiling at pots of plants and stacks of books
HAHA!
had a fab time..
<3 you guys :)
those were the dayyyys!


i miss the genuine laughter and all that fun
where did it all dissipate to..
hrm well.


stephiphi's place tmrw!
:D :D
yahoo auctions here we come..


shah la la.
hahah.
everyones doing this..!

Your dating personality profile: Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love. Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance. Shy - You are often timid around others, though you will open up when the right person comes along.

Your date match profile: Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps his body in top shape. Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life. Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Big-Hearted 2. Stylish 3. Shy 4. Liberal 5. Athletic 6. Romantic 7. Sensual 8. Traditional 9. Wealthy/Ambitious 10. Adventurous

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Athletic 2. Big-Hearted 3. Shy 4. Stylish 5. Romantic 6. Practical 7. Adventurous 8. Traditional 9. Conservative 10. Religious

Take the Online Dating Profile Quiz at Dating Diversions


nonsense, i say.
sportygalzz are gonna mock me for being athletic :|
i didnt cheat, honest!


i dont care,
i have no luck.
i dont miss it all that much.

anyone who can touch you
can hurt you or heal you
anyone who can reach you
can love you or leave you


time to revive this space a lil..
all my papers are freaking screwed
congratulations to me
:(
math was fucking screwed la.
sadness.
OH WELL.


today spiced things up!
:)

met tinks (hahah!)
havent seen that girl since a month ago when the left for shanghai! hrm. doesnt matter. laughed so hard today. jiang and nette + tinks were being major nuts :D

great food + fab shopping (all butter choc cookie and teenvogue AFTER SO LONG and 4 mango items and 1 RL polo! :) + our usual freaky movie to boot = great laughs and happy times, yes. feels like the old days. which i need a lot of..


bumped into stj! (..nonsense opening line..haha)
and lotsa other people..such a town day.


looking fwd to 5 day hols
kicking off with holland v breakfast! and some oldold friends after.
:D

\\

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
breathe, just breathe,
breathe, just breathe.


A Lot Like Love was fabfabfab
go watch it!! a million thumbs up. another title to add to list of favourite movies!
amanda peet is cute
and obviouslyyyyy so is ashton kutcher..haha
the soundtrack is also wayyy fab

anywayy
the thing is, i feel damn screwed right now..
this is seriously like shit!
ugh. ARGH.
school is starting in a few days..
seriously. ive never been filled with such extensive dread. its already been months but it just wont go away.
i
dont
want
school
:(
this is such a steph moment.
where art thou girly :( :(
i dont wanna wake up tomorrow.
my legs are tired just thinking about it.

\ feelitcomingallbacktome.

You've been so thoughtless
I can see right through you
You used to be there for me
don't you leave and say goodbye
You have changed, but so have I

I never thought that the time and the distance
Between us made you so much colder

youre my wonderwall

conclusion #1

steph is one who applies hyperbole-ism (self coined word haha) at its utmost extreme..
i keep reminding myself to keep this theory in mind, especially after all these years, but somehow her exaggeration never ceases to amaze me. theyre clearly outsmarting each other ._.
-faints.


conclusion #2

studying at anywhere else but home :
study breaks = shopping time.
which brings me to the topic of my fantabulous buys at fcuk+prints today hehe!
me+steph+rachel were happily raiding prints. and they were constantly mocking me for my taste in cards, yes ._.


conclusion #3

cookies and cream ice blended could secretly be coffee! be warned! do not be conned!


conclusion #4

local designers = COOLIO.
-looks at ree!
:D :D
-looks at the BOOKMARK jiang bought and laughs at her
haha!


conclusion #5

(its about time we faced this conclusion, steph)
the most recently published teenvogue mustve been june/july.


conclusion #6

three years plus of friendship dont mean nothing, nana! :)


conclusion #7

attempts to detox body will always fail
due to butter and etc that i always subconsciously add to my food


conclusion #8

initial d = jay chou + edison chen + shawn yue = screaming fans = not functioning escalators = HIGH annoyance = everyone BUT jayz's fault
hahah.
thanks and sorry, steph :)


conclusion #9

ironic as it is, IM-ing creates proper opportunities for interaction between the impossible, but also creates impossibility for proper interaction.


conclusion #10

BIRTHDAY BOOKS ARE SO NOT TRUE
i refuse to nod my head along with ree and jiang, no!


gdnightyy!

sweet misery

online shopping is the new fad..
hahah.

steph+i found a second resort in case majumall fails!
:D :D

last week of hols coming right up
im so freaking screwed
wish the second and third week could replayyyy
but then again, if i turned back time,
then the time wasted would be futile
cos out of the sandcastles ive built
i realise something else beautiful was constructed too,
so.

the oc craze is back,
brewing stronger than ever
STEPH I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH SANDY COHEN, your nonsense is seriously over the top.
emo oc songs + megan's furry presence + steph's company + well-carved faces + sweet saccharine + too many apples = fuzziness from within.
healthy activites :)

msn dollies!! i love tings. girl, i miss you!!
emptiness is always with us, yupyup.

HWING ths is a special shoutout to you tho you have a tagboard, haha. SMILE. im always hereee. lets try to revive wendy periods!! <3 you so.

charmie hammie, happy bday once again!! MISS YOU!

nette hahah you and your twitchy eye! everyday~! gossip queen. asap!! miss you too!

nana POK, stop it lo, you pretending galz. trying to check yourself out on the www!? horrible girl. hahah bt yes, thts really cool. meet up again? I NEED TO RUN/JOG/WHATEVER. and btw, steph INSISTED tht running fast for half an hr loses weight! are you sure! i thought its run slowly?? sprinting induces chunks of muscles right??

steph BITCHIEEEEE i absolutely adore you babe :D :D yes, number 2. we'll mail each other right. hahaha.

//
am talking to dadeedoo now..seriously getting worrying. i dnt evn knw wht ive been doing! havent properly caught up with so many people dearly missed. sigh. feel like visiting everyone right now and knocking on their doors to offer a huge long overdue hug. oh wellll. TIME FLIES.

butterflies
Swallow purple terror candy
Don't forget to breathe
Sickened by the wanting
And drowning from the need
And now I feel unsteady
Emotions on the blink again
So kick me
When you're ready
Here lies a violet coffin
The death of my control
Along with all my skeletons
They put them in a hole
Butterflies, butterflies
My heart will be
The bridge that
You walk over

haha actually my new fringe feels queer!
in a funny way. want to laugh at myself when i walk past the mirror.
i just hope it doesnt make me look littler.
gross!


anyhow
woke up this morning with a splitting headache
and the thing is i hatehatehate being sick
i think i mustve been thinking too much nonsense
so today
im emptying all the redundance
and letting it sail away.


shall change my layout soon
getting a bit too annoyingly morbid, dont you think!


studied with hwing today! we were bored out of our minds and wandering dazed souls all around the mall, when, tada! we decided to pierce our ears! funny thing was we suddenly flew wide awake and into a sudden study fit and studied without talking at all for an hour! funniness. ought to do such stuff more often. excites the nervous system! hehe. and hwing, im not littler at all! ._. will be sure to msg you about The Exciting Earring Twist hahah.

bumped into sq! momsiee, been so long.

and what is with funny boys with atrocious behaviour such as waving and blowing flying kisses through bus window panes..


talking to sammiekins now,
our conversation is haha, emo.
miss you, man!


and my favourite girl on earth (neat face cutie pie HAHAH),

wting' waste some time with u says:
aye wend

wting' waste some time with u says:
i feel like running away ley

wting' waste some time with u says:
v nice

wting' waste some time with u says:
just dun lk bk n run away

wting' waste some time with u says:
haha

wend' are you still leaving anways says:
hahah i dnt lyk running

wend' are you still leaving anways says:
i lyk walking

wend' are you still leaving anways says:
i lyk walking away

wting' waste some time with u says:
hahaha

wting' waste some time with u says:
u lazy pig

wend' are you still leaving anways says:
hahah really la

wting' waste some time with u says:
i'l walk away with u then


HAHA.

/ nada surf if you leave

say goodbye to yesterdays :)

\ and i hope this, along with everything else, makes you happy too :)
if you still care like you used to, that is.

its the way you make me feel

cant rmb wht song is tht
but tht one liner is stuck in my head!
people make me happy, yes
:D
happy post happy post.

i love steph
and the nan quans!
+ nana!

tad happier.
the old man crashing the cans.
._.

dont phunk with my heart

msn's died on me.
i really want to say so has everything else
but of course thats not the truth
the truth is i just died on myself.

i realise im not making sense
and i also realise my entries recently seem to have curtains of black clouds hanging all over them
but i guess i only feel like blogging
when i need some sos..

and the oscar award goes to .. me.

so i guess this is when i disappear
we were at sakae today, the teriyaki chicken don was wayy too filling
i told steph i feel like a stepping stone to people's happiness,
time and time again
and she told me she realised shes been too science-y and not been in touch with her arty fartiness
this is so screwed,
im lying about lying to myself.
cut my hair,
thought i'd feel better
i genuinely did -
i thought i had put everything behind,
buried and sat on it
but it just comes back anyways.

but of course i know
things arent the way they are
and i know how they actually are
so theres really no reason to be upset

BIG SMILE, so there.
SMILE LIKE YOU MEAN IT.
by the killers.
i just want to be happy.
:)

told you i have conflicting thoughts raging in my head.

happyhappy 18th nic :)

tried studying with steph tdy,
realise wht a failure it has been..
have i mentioned we both cut our hair
ladidum.
everything is just so far away.
i dont know what im doing.

i'll just cancel everything
and stay the way i wassssssssss
but what was i like?

completely <3 mk olsen



not lesbian k! ._.

/ i know this wont keep up
cos i was never anyone from the start
same like any other
dont know why but yknw i still bother!

nana thanks for your msg. i'll try okay? I LOVE YOU. cant wait for weds!

words don't get me far.

last night i unknowingly realised something about myself.
i know its weird but
i like to conjure up theories secretly in my own mind
and most of them are seriously conflicting thoughts
but now i know
the one and only top theory on my list should always have been

to always always be pessimistic about things.

im either a fucking retard,
or there's seriously something wrong with me.
i dont even listen to the dire warnings squeaking in my own head.
cos the second time has to mean something.
its so ironical when you think about how it started in the first place.
for both times, yes.
history in the making.

i need to stop being so freaking transparent.
i think everyone can see words floating out of my brains as i walk past them or something.

something like this only happens to dumb girls.
i guess im just a dumb dumb dumb dumb girl
thats what i am.

OKAY ENOUGH OF THIS.
MY BLOG IS SERIOUSLY BLACK-AND-WHITE-LY MORBID ENOUGH.
HAPPYGALZ.
so much for even attempting.

/ lucy woodward dumb girls.

and this is how this night is gonna end.
im sitting here at 3a.m
i just
want it to be like it was before
cos i dont think that my heart can take much more.

THE END.

but tell me just what has it ever meant.

changed internet modem, its being kinda queer and not working well hrm.
ystd majumalled with steph :)
were completely pissed with our math tys.
and also the queerdo grps1, 2, 3
totally intruding shh-land with their impertinence!
anyways, towned after that..
shopping, whee. much needed retail therapy..which didn't work much
found our stuff at pac plaza and scotts
uber embarrassing incident at Guess
-faints.
not like i cared at that point of time
but now that i look back it is really cringe-o-worthy
yikes! haha but whatever la.
steph is secretly impressed with my tiny arm muscles, amusedgalz.
we're healthygalz!
sandwich+caesar salad for lunch and mushroom soup with garlic bread for dinner
no appetite for anything else.
Distraughtgalz.
hahah i seriously get some cheap thrill out of the ah liansx lingo.
everyday~!!
its completely addictive,
don't think i can quit it.
HOW!

stephie bitchie!
thanks for being constantly there to listen. and excusing my rumbles and outrageous outbursts
awaiting your good news over the phone ltr, you happygalz
hahah. over a bikini and tube, yes. :D HAHA im suddenly thinking about teenvogue. -chuckles to self! hehe i love majumalling with you!

jiang thanks for calling :) hahah sorry abt my ps incident (trying to be discreet and not spelling the entire thing out!) see ya ltrrrrr..

happyhappyhappy 17th birthday, charm!
partyyy. miss you, hammie!

birthdays birthdays! lotsa people turned/turning 17 recently. reminds me of how mine is perpetually in the long wait..

Oh God
Please don't tell me this has been in vain
You kill me
You've always known the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do
But I just cant walk away

++ just a note to dearies signing my gbk ;;
HAHA im totally apologetic about the cheeeeeesyyyy layout.
signmyguestbook has declined my many attempts to change the layouts for a few years now! annoyed! haha.

/ Dashboard Conf. Am I missing. So impossible.
Jimmy Eat World Kill.

but im happy this way too
funny how someone can make you really happy
and really down
floatless and weightless
but also send you plummeting down the next moment.

well, i dont know
but i know i dont mean much, probably.
oh well.

still.
:)

ralph lauren rocks.
the nan quans loovvvvveeeeee!!

stuck in a rut

dont know what i got myself into
its like i had a nightmare and when i wake up
i find myself landed in the web of consequences
i dont know why or how
this is too weird to be true.

@ steph's place now
watching chasing liberty
had strawberry milkshake in the morning! :D :D
or maybe im just sick of being upset.
i love my poddie

confucious + confusion

last night was super :)galz! nan quan night. hahah

anyways, was with ree (Queen Late) at coffeebean
talked and talked and talked about everything
im happy youre happy, babe :)
please chuck hornyboyz outta the window and fight back slutty zidong galz!
what is the world coming to..filled with disturbing people haha
-looks at what you wrote in my butterfly book ;;
no prob, i'll always listen to your shit ++youre my angel too!

after which we left for nana's place
greeted by a facial masked braless creature in a nightgown
who couldnt crack a smile and spoke in murmurs
so that she wldnt crack her mask
hahahah
anyways. watched russell peters -LAUGHS
then me + ree suddenly dozed off
and woke up high and nuts
fighting over the comforter and everything
and she should stop being obscene!
HA, i have stronger arms than she does -grins
hehe.

just watched Matchstick Men dvd
the show's pretty good
alison whats-her-surname is really awesomely cute!
she looks a lot like kirsten dunst.
and also, is it me or does gwen stefani look like brittany murphy??
hrm.
havent been studying again.
sigh.
helpp.
was totally hyper and exuberent in the morning
and was actually thinking about what to blog about happily
but am all drained now, haha

lovelovelove dashboard confessional!

So she says
"Everyone's going to the party,
won't you come if I come
with a friend for your friend?
I'd be so pleased to see you
out of the classroom wearing the smile that I'll bring you.
I was hoping to learn a few things like..
Do you do you like dishing the dirt
on the whole class &
talking the big smack &
playing the fool &
wearing all of the latest fashions
or bucking the new trends
wearing your old threads.
If you like coffee in the evening
These are a few things that I'd like to know
that I'd like to know"

So I say...
"I've been scheduled to work but I'll call in
and my friend isn't busy
he'd be happy to join me
and maybe my friend
and your friend
will hit it off or maybe we will?"

I'm dying to know
do you do you like dreaming of things
so impossible or only the practical
or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days
just to end them with
someone you care about
or do you like making out
and long drives and brown eyes
and guys that just
don't quite fit in
yeah do you like them
So yes, I'll see you there.

\ steph thanks for everything babe :)

hey, stay with me

SUPER UNPRODUCTIVE DAY!
did NOTHING.
omgness. am such a slacker. will be a retainee for a hundred years and then kill myself soon after.

i'll be

met up with sportygalz!

in the morning had tuition,
could do most trigo questions! am :D !! okay, the questions were quite simple but i used to be totally befuddled and detached from the mysterious world of trigonometry. so this is a baby step up! yay..haha

was feeling a tad accomplished
happily met the girls :)
havent seen all of thm in SUCH a long time!
lunched at nooch,
were such chatty and talkative galz
esp jyingz + sam gesturing wildly and excitedly gushing
the storytellers!
gossipfolks :O

then walked around,
got very worn out and tired all of a sudden
yes jyingz, im fine, but thanks anyway :)
charm + i each got smth frm zara, yayness
sam + i = greenday!
hahah and poor lynette choong, my mockery regarding wht you did to greenie will never cease -evil laughter! and pls cheer up about what people say..strange + queer! (aqualung's strange+beautiful nice right :)

after jyingzz left for her Revolving Tower Dinner, which she constantly brought up during our short outing, we went coffeebean (me + sam were totally betraying them and bringing in their rival's greentea frappe + oreo cheesecake) to attempt to study but ended up exchanging emo songs and chitchatting some more :|
so i take everything back,
so much for being accomplished..
totally unproductive day!
but am currently too lazy to care.

after which met the other jiaying & co.
trailing behind like kiddos, yes.
conflicting thoughts, all of us, but ended up in starbucks anyhow.
happy party plans being crafted!
was getting very sleepy and drowsy
contacts were killing me!
left after a while..

and here i am,
online chatting away
with the people not in spore,
hahah. <3 !
and am quite :)) !
theyre both exuding some exuberance, finally,
and got some hehe news.

sigh, tmrw tutoring!
new receptionist called just now in the morning,
sounding very bitchy indeed.
asking for my attendance sheet
omg la i dnt evn knw whts tht!
faints.
dreading bitchy receptionist and whiny kids.
righto.
off!

puerility

everyone's becoming to queer to be true.
queerdos 4,5,6,7 and the list goes on.
i cant take it anymore!!
why is everything changing so drastically!
i merely turned my back.
please stay sane, i have no one else to turn to.

late lunch ;
starbucks green tea frappe + swensons baked rice
reminds me of nan quan tings

watched ;
mtvs with the above mentioned girl (wonders of world wide web) till 3+ in the morning. (michelle branch's goodbye to you rates the highest, booboo goes to many other artists) + the prince and me (steph! lousy recommendation!)

did ;
some math questions (pathetic, i know)

feeling ;
VERY fat. and random and annoyed and sad
one of those days..

reading ;
five by julianne baggott.
wittily hilarious! :)

still ;
having stomachache (nasty macs lime juice doesnt work for me)
wondering

just a day just an ordinary day
just trying to get by
just a boy just an ordinary boy
but he was looking into the sky

havent talked to tings for a few days cos i havent been online at night :(
been rushing home to bathe and jump into bed at 11+ everyday~ (curly wurly indicates singsong tune..haha sportygalzz's inside joke)

steph+i are ABSOLUTE majumall residents.
at any time of any day ranging from morning to evening you can see 2 queerdos either
1. laughing hysterically
2. singing loudly (ok maybe a bit of screaming)
3. EATING AND MUNCHING ON SMTH
4. psycho-ly rushing through their work cos they suddenly realise theyre late and running out of time (ok shall admit tht part's only for me..hahah steph was happily still in the mood for chitchatting whilst i flew into a sudden fit and rushed through my lit notes like a psycho galzz. haha we were alr late to meeting nai! nw we knw why shes Queen of Lateness!)
and i realise we're not the only majumall residents! been seeing people wandering about too haha such as yip liming, who ive been bumping into like, almost everyday now. haha

as usual, gonna majumall ltr. thn going nai's hse! yippee, havent gone to her hse in ages. totally sec2 days. funny how everyone has changed so much :)
tsk, dad's damn annoying. pissing me off.

anyway. tues steph+i were totally wisma-ing..spent like 4hrs or so in that compound! gdness. being w steph = good food = FATTYGALZZ! happy yet sad. haha

\ur officially stuck to me n we're officially stuck to majumall n we're officially stuck AWAY FROM ****

earth angel steph

11:33 am - Wednesday,June 1, 2005 ++

completely! <3 the girl, despite the fact tht shes such an annoying brat who steals my poddie though she has a own and has regular strange laughing fits. haha okay la, such a joy to be with, really. :) hope we keep up with this!

alrighty. off i go!

\ p.s i miss the sportygalzz + ree&nana + HWING (excuse me -glares. im a forgotten girl) + wiffa + dadeedoo ! okay, everybody ! :(

++ EDIT @ 10.16pm
just reached home and rushed online
to talk to tings! miss that girl a trillion times!!
(:
oh, met this very kind stranger+friend on the bus.
as usual, im always needing strangers to give me some coins (i think they could be v lazy to change coins for my notes) cos i always have no idea when my ezlink runs out of money! horrified and panickly digging for coins, hoping they'd spruce up in my wallet suddenly. but anyway. wanted to give the guy the apple lollipop in my wallet but i think he'll laugh at me or something. cos i cant imagine him eating a lollipop. quite a buffed up scaryboiz. hrm.

feeling qt rahh.
nighty.

all that i've got

I need something else
Would someone please just give me,
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep,
I can laugh
All I want inside I still am empty,
So deep that it didn't even bleed catch me I'll..

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

tings im sorry! comp was screwed up last night. talk soonnnnn! you shldve tkn a photo of tyk's bag at least thn you wldnt b in such misery haha. glad your mum liked kate spade!! told you she would! and are you wearing your fcuks in shanghai? take good care of them!! -warning look.

friday towned with tings -looks at her 4 bulging shopping bags and faints. a teeny weeny strain on the credit card huh. hahah funfunfun. watched amityville horror. freakingfreaking scary and sad show. poor little jody! or jolie or whatever. we were too starbucksy to be true. greentea+choc frappe PLUS oreocheesecake anytimeee :) our conversation by the window seats was swinging from depressiveness to crazed laughter. missing you already!
\ we said goodbye at orchard boulevard. shant be seeing that girl for a month :(

saturday was spent with stephiebeans (HAHA) @ majumall, hehe. we <3 coffeebean dont we :) was veryvery DreamLife! i like! yummy dinner after that too :))

ree says im fatgalz! >:(

hols are here! didnt feel like the hols till i woke up later than my usual freaking 5.45a.m on a monday morning. very much looking forward to uncontrolled-by-authorities lifestyle :) i say what time i want to wake up, when i want to go out, what i want to wear, what i want to eat, when i want to study! yayness!

gonna lunch soon.
partaking in the greatsporesale tmrw! whee :D

if you leave
dont leave now
please dont take my heart away
promise me
just one more night
then we'll go our separate ways
we always had time on our side
but now its fading fast

\ its 11.38pm now! finally done with my blog. haha its too green to be true. nette will not be very happy with me, i suppose, cos ths is her ahem's colour :| hahah but anyway i love it! getting quite depressed talking to tings online. SIGH. that aside, i <3 my mummy! :) been such a homely girl today.

so you stole my heart
and wrote me a ransom letter

am annoyed galzz
confirmed my worst fears
the anna sui sweet dreams (is it what its called?) miniminiatureS (notice the capital s) the nice countergirl gave me has officially disappeared! not to mention what an irritating day it has been. been really hungry throughout the day! why?? hungry wendy makes an angry wendy. why so hungry! made me so pissed. wasting even more energy being mad. argh, my blood boils.

at least i talked to ree
went to the girl's house this afternoon.
am sorry was hungry+angry galzz! hahah okok will stop it with the ah lianzz lingo. and my abercrombie's NOT ah lianzz okay. -shoots you an annoyed look. hope everything will only get better..HUGS! and welcome back to the cyberworld haha

okayy. seriously need to get back to studying. am too slothy to be true! :( what is this..TSK! im just so bloody annoyed with myself. shall go sleep or smth.

tings i miss you every fucketty bit! (pardon my vulgarity at this mo pls, exasperation is taking over me) sorry i missed your call! >:( mighty upset aobut it. hows shanghai and everything been?

grr. am off! angsty.

dreamy dayyy

i think i can totally reside in the school library :|
today was my most uneventfully peaceful day in sa..
nvm qt happy la. (of course, with jay ZZ in my ipod)
got loads to catch up on,
happily self declared the entire week to be school holidays
as in having a holiday in school.
am too lazy to be true.

SAMMIEKINS you deserted us (am repeating ths for the umpteenth time hahah)
quick think of another theme for our nxt outing!! :D :D
and i nvr do any bulging eye twisted mouth thingy lo!!
asked around and people just looked at me puzzedly.
no strangegalzz!

tsk, tings leaving tmrw.

Your Birthdate: December 12

Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

You Are 40% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

hahahah.

sparrows outside the window

im totally immersed in 'jay-z' ness :D
blissfully happy and ignorant of everything
because i chose to ignore. and pretend a certain person doesnt exist and i did not hear what i heard

so, yay.

'jay z' rocks my world
hahahah
im such a cheenapok
thanks to the overnight discovery of his nice songs!
:)

ystd ws quite a nice day
half day and slacking at holland v crystal jade
charm+i overate as usual :(
need to implement diet asap pls!
everyones being so slothy and lazy recently
ystd sam, today jyingzz haha

okay la. lynette choong is nice..
meeting tings ltr to nan quan! hahaha -laughs.
:O
gonna miss you.

steph cheer up! :))
ree cnt wait to meet up!!!!!

mosquito bites and dew drops

had a fab weekend :)
fri ;
lunched with the sportygalzz @ hbfrnt pasta
then rushed back to pack my stuff,
met tings,
albeit her full shopping mode
got us so charged
bought lotsa yay stuff :D :D anna sui and zara kids rocks, dont they
got stuff for her sisters in shanghai too
YES, TINGS = NICE SISTER
hahah
watched The Jacket
its freaking, freaking good.
but the beginning was kinda psycho,
the type of scare that messes with your mind
but trust me, the ending was totally worth it!
we <3 adrien brody.. :D (who resembles a certain yk..haha)

sat ;
went to ac with her to meet sylvia for a while
erm, saw her yk.. :O hahah
lunched at fish+co (now that i think of it, our breakfast consisted only of percy pigs and marks and spencer raspberry and cream!) DOUBLY TRIPLY WHAMMY. YUMMY :D
rushed to kino to grab some stuff (again being the nice sister)
living up to our secondary school days again, hahah
was in a frenzy,
met up with hwing+kenny for a while (the latter was being v annoying as usual haha)
then hurried back to tings' apartment to grab my stuff
while that sleepy and dazed girl slept
i braved the storms (okay, the drizzle) to town and rescued sabrinanapok with my 60bucks
got nai's pres and scurried to downtown east
the entire journey was bursting with emotions and confusion i shall not elaborate, haha
but in the end we reached nai's chalet safe and sound (kudos to steph's parents)
and ate the MOST FANTASTICALLY TASTY bbq food
whoo. now me+steph know the secret!! shall not tell anyone else hahah

HAPPY HAPPY 18TH, NAI :)
we all love you!
meet up soon alright!

and though the bbq was again so packed with emotions (bitchfits),
we had a blast
sat on the cold+hard stone benches with our ipods, talking into the night and morning
nana and her fortune telling :|
dew formed on us!
the talk that night got me thinking lots. (shall not type it all out and be emogalzz)
and i was so depressed that i wanted to die while doing math ystd (no, for the first time math wasnt the root of the anguish) but was texting steph and we went through everything together,
and now im just so glad
:)

sunday ;
was spent @ home,
catching up on sleep and busy being depressed
haha

today ;
might be meeting tings and sylvia for lunch ltr
i better study!!
:|
school.

anw wht happened to my fellow sportygalzz
was the meetup today cancelled or smth?
i miss laurraine the ah liansxz and her chitchat, lynette_choong and her sleeps tht crack us up, jyingzz and her endless mockery and charm and her hamsterness already! realise am going to school quite happily now because of the existence of our ahem sportiness which brought us together haha (OKAY FINE im the only unsporty one :(

long entry!
hope everything will be fine

\ friends. im just so glad,
they get me through everything
thanks guys :)

youre such a sucker :)

i <3 cute without the e!

anyway that was random.
so :D today!!
met up with tings and everything was nicely normal
normality is bliss sometimes
hahah
and even though we got conned at sushi tei :|
the lumpiness and pudginess..!
AND ahem, i only had 4 wrongs in the econs mcq test which i jst did! teehee, never cheat okay!
and
long weekend coming up,
yayness! :))

goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything i thought that i knew

am super bloated.
ate damn a lot today (whats new)
diet plan starts TMRW, i insist :(
am such a procrastinator!

am so worn out.
been rushing homework and what not
foresee self-declared breaks coming up

am currently completely detached and weirded out
i hate my life,
i need something nice for a change,
feel like im perpetually stuck in a rut.
even retail therapy didnt cheer me up (w hwing just now. were both too stoned to be true -yawn. MISS YOU THOUGH! and ive missed out so much :((
am so sleepy,
hv no idea what im saying (damn ipod takes such a bloody long time to charge >:(
BUT
people disappoint.
and they scare me sometimes
when i realise they could have hidden agendas and stuff.
okay, blabber.

pardon my incoherance.
ugh, feeling vvv pukish after all that food :S

dada DADEEDOO thanks for your shoutout in your purplesand HAHA miss you too :) nice seeing you today, dsf!

mlene SO! happiness for a change?? haha im not morbid galzz okay! haha and thanks for your postcard, must appreciated. <3

theres a lack of colour here

:(
i dont have enough time with the friends
i dont have enough time for math and geog and econs and lit and everything
i dont have the impetus to gravity defy..

totally emogalz.

update is complete.

today was a .. pleasant day :)
lessons ended early, holland v-ed with man + hammie
hahah.
had fabFABFANTABULOUS latte
good music
studied a bit
talked
pored over teenvogue

DREAM LIFE!
:D
mm day pls! :)

sigh,
tmrws The anniversary day.
jinx day! :(
need ALL protetection to ward off curses and evilness.

but anyway, after leaving holland v
i came home and did 2 essays
so im practically dying and my brains are all fried and shackled.
worn out (and hungry, as always :(
got so distracted blog surfing !
what is this..
multi tasker #2
(the championship title belongs to laurraine the ah lianzz..and whts w the split personality! using fictitious name! ahhah nvm i love you all the same AWW :)

steph CHEER UP! lovelovelove. will msg you. keep habitually msging your other number :|

\ such a pms-y night.
am very annoyed, f i hate school.
I WANT ST NICKS!
super slack, happy and relaxed lifestyle
with no irritating and bitchy school system out to get you
piles and heaps of homework that actually has to be handed in
tings + steph + ree + everyone i miss youuu :(
PMSING.

if you leave

# disclaimer's note : the above entry has been edited due to remarks from gbk signers ;) hahah.

++

today was a rather eventful day,
hahah
had to at least mention something about this day!

thought it was gonna be quite a ruined day
but it turned out more than quite alright
in a strange way

i dont think im talking sense
but i cant say how it began,
just little random stuff that i did today
and it all pieced up quite well

had a very nice talk w steph last night :)
cldnt have done it without you, bitchy galzz. haha
then thr ws the taping oc drama rama..
the brand new 3 in 1 machine has been sitting in the living room since cny
and not single family member knew how to operate it
and cos one of the functions ws to record shows and we decided to be adventurous and explore the machine somehow
and oc ws beginning so my sis was in a fluster to record it
but in the end tht silly self deluded girl was taping some malay programme..a group of people sitting there singing and playing the kangkong or something :| and she happily told me it was marissa and co. fainted.
but alas, ahem ahem, i managed to find a way to work it
and tadah
merry chrismukkah!
haha.

anyway. today my voice kept giving way in the morning
huskily trying to find mr lee with charm hahah (charm is a person btw. not literally charming.. |: omgosh jst realised its such a pun-infested day. Food Friend! hahah priv joke)
and i huskily got out of doing pe too
sat there and watched the class play soccer
highly amusing, stomach was wrenching as i laughed!
and then i was the bib carrier
happily being mocked at as the maid la. wendy, stand straight! now courtsey? ooh, she looks like lady in waiting. thanks ah. to think i folded their sweaty and wet bibs!
hrm, then had lunch with nette the school food gal at heart
haha SILLY SAM and her jelly.
anw left WITH SIM JIAYING to meet karina at harbourfront
towned, wandered about. tried weird unfitting clothes like some frantic lunatic in a frenzy
then ERM, went to watch cj vs sa hockey @ SMU (right, we managed to catch cj people hugging each other with joy)
and headed for, -drumroll..THE PRATA POSE!
tht ws whr i had my first FRENCH PRATA (wow! -rolls eyes.) and karina cldnt stop laughing at all, my fantastic prata..
then we started talking about worrying stuff
and got so freaked out in that
stupid life changing prata pose
after which we, shall i say, EXERCISEDand it was one exercise i enjoyed the most in my life
:)
okay, we walked along nassim road (the 400bucks estate in monopoly, singapore)
and talked about all the stuff i nvr thought i'd say to these two mere STRANGERS
haha KIDDING. i mean these two DAHLINGS
seriously it nvr once crossed my mind whn i saw them wandering about in st nicks
that i'd be doing such stuff with them one day.

how strange everything eventually turns out to be
okay long entry
ive been like,
beating around the bush.
hahah, imagery! i suddenly had this image of myself whacking some bushes :O
okay self entertainment + monologue..

ele called :)
am having quite a nice conversation with YINGZZZ
hahah
the simple things!
okay okay. strange mode.

good sleep, all! :)

yingzz added your name alr lahh..hahah tsk, people purposely left your name out so tht others wont start rumouring yellow+black bag again what! haha kd. i jst plainly assumed your name popped up somewhr. and dont you just like my changes! hahah i dont care, its such a chio name siazz! -chuckles.

sabrinanapok i knowzzz..and you too okiezz :)) LUBX CHOO yknw. hahah. WHEN SHALL WE MEET UP! enough about your changing-before-meeting-us business i tell you!!

laurainne the ah lianzsx AH MAN! you silly galzz lo. i really think its the chlorine from the swimming pool! polo = jinx! stay away from it!! hahahah. im like, laughing to myself. anyway, poor galzz!! hope you get better then you can join us foodies in eating fab food (wah overflow of alliteration haha) without feeling guilty! -hugs :)) and SHALL WE MAHJONG @ SENTOSA VERY SOON..we planned like eons ago..such a sadly deserted important plan

okayy, i shall let the cat out of the bag..
i edited this entry on sunday 8th mayb 6:39pm
and i shall blog now cos im too lazy to start in another post,
hahah
sat was spent with the stephie bitchie
who slept away most of the afternoon, that tired galzz
and we studied like, DAMN A LOT i cant stand it LAHH..
haha. was sacarstic, if you didnt notice

then we went SHOPPING
damn teehee
i love the nike @ ps!
dont we?? (you better grow out your hair and snag that p.o.s bag i tell you -death glare. no more TRIMS.)
:)
love that babe <3

tings, hope youre having a fab time in msia
next weekend alright?
the strange land us strange galzz are in,
hahah
misses LOTSA!

shouldve couldve wouldve done something
but i dont know what

am very angstygalzz! (yes i knw hw preposterously crazy the previously only-for-fun-between-the-sportygalzz ah lianz lingo has now conformed into a habit)
typed a whole chunk and poof, all gone.
>:(

i thought i lost you somewhere
but i realise you never ever really were there.

o1. dont really like my medicine very much. hate hate hate cough mixtures! and its pink! eew.

o2. should really stop food binge. -looks at char siew bao and soya milk.

o3. have lots of essays halfway done, should stop surfing net and doing crap such as this.

o4. copycat jiang skipped sch too, shes studying w nanapok. yellow+black bag galzz mia in school HAHAH.

o5. cant believe sam went to school with her bloody gums and swollen eyelid! poor girl. unclear vision musta gotten to her.

o5. am feeling a lot better now, as compared to ystd. steph i think i ws too much in a daze to be aware of wht i ws babbling abt ystd..cant believe we didnt exchange gossip or talk about -. i realise now that i cnt rmb wht we were doing?? the raging headache musta retarded my thoughts. (centrestage was fabfabfab)

o6. yay holland v w tings tmrw :) we are the poddie mini familyyyy..

o7. and everything should end here. move onnnn.

i feel fine and i feel good
i feel like i never should.
everytime i get this way
i just dont know what to say.

hwing i miss youuu.
(not lesbo-ing ah. platonically! ltr k kill me :O hahah)

am sickgalzz :(
throbbing headache, stuffed up nose and sandpaper/desert throat.
hrmpf.

and i remember the last time i was dying like this,
you were there.

okay whatever.
gonna see the doctor now :((

update agn ltrrr.